That moment when you're being chased by the cops, they yell "freeze!", and you respond with "everybody clap your hands!" *clap clap clap clap clap* #ThugLyfe
So before anyone freaks out, I'm not a negligent Auntie. He was fussing, and I made light of it. I don't give him reasons to cry, nor do I get joy from this precious baby's pain etc.
So I was offered an unconditional place in a PhD programme at Cardiff University today. After the initial disbelief, I was completely over the moon. I had gotten rejection after rejection, and I was really starting to believe that my ideas weren't meant to be researched, or at the very least, that they weren't ready for it. But finally, FINALLY someone sees something in me to give me the resources that I need to grow. I feel like the world has opened up to me, and I have the chance to learn and become something great if I'm willing to work my ass off for it. But I'm already imagining the sweet, sweet pain having to leave the kiddies after I've grown so close to Connor especially, but one thought makes me feel like it will be worth it. I would become such a great role model for them. When they're still small, (hopefully) my visits will always be so special since they'll be only certain times a year, and as they grow older they'll see the opportunities they could have if they're willing to work at it. Just because their roots are in a small town doesn't mean they can't branch out (punny pun pun). Small towns are lovely places of course, don't misunderstand.
But in one day I feel like I got my happiness back (knock on wood), and I realized why I was so upset before the offer arrived. I felt like life was happening to me, not that I was seizing it, making my own choices. I wasn't doing so well at being positive during hard times, but I was trying! Really hard! Maybe that just means I'll be a little better at it if they come back around.
All that said, I haven't accepted the offer yet. I want to weigh all my options first, but I just had to tell my faithful audience about the relief I felt once all that work and stress and anxiety and bla bla bla paid off AT LAST! This one's for you then, faithful audience. Cheers! *clink* blergblergblergblerg
So before anyone freaks out, I'm not a negligent Auntie. He was fussing, and I made light of it. I don't give him reasons to cry, nor do I get joy from this precious baby's pain etc.
So I was offered an unconditional place in a PhD programme at Cardiff University today. After the initial disbelief, I was completely over the moon. I had gotten rejection after rejection, and I was really starting to believe that my ideas weren't meant to be researched, or at the very least, that they weren't ready for it. But finally, FINALLY someone sees something in me to give me the resources that I need to grow. I feel like the world has opened up to me, and I have the chance to learn and become something great if I'm willing to work my ass off for it. But I'm already imagining the sweet, sweet pain having to leave the kiddies after I've grown so close to Connor especially, but one thought makes me feel like it will be worth it. I would become such a great role model for them. When they're still small, (hopefully) my visits will always be so special since they'll be only certain times a year, and as they grow older they'll see the opportunities they could have if they're willing to work at it. Just because their roots are in a small town doesn't mean they can't branch out (punny pun pun). Small towns are lovely places of course, don't misunderstand.
But in one day I feel like I got my happiness back (knock on wood), and I realized why I was so upset before the offer arrived. I felt like life was happening to me, not that I was seizing it, making my own choices. I wasn't doing so well at being positive during hard times, but I was trying! Really hard! Maybe that just means I'll be a little better at it if they come back around.
All that said, I haven't accepted the offer yet. I want to weigh all my options first, but I just had to tell my faithful audience about the relief I felt once all that work and stress and anxiety and bla bla bla paid off AT LAST! This one's for you then, faithful audience. Cheers! *clink* blergblergblergblerg