Klik on da tinee piks 2 maek dem beega.
Going to Berlin marked lots of things, one of which being the return of bubble tea as you know. The second was spending copious amounts of time with Cornelius's parents, who I think like me. At least, his mom does because she told me. Granted, it may be partially because we ganged up on Corny whenever we were together, and that bonded us. It was low, but I regret nothing. Third, I was able to meet several of his friends that he'd known for years, and I was finally able to put a face to the names. Here are a few things I need to remember:
1. Club Mate\Mio Mate is nas-tay.
2. Trams are fun!
3. Berlin bus drivers have sumthin' to prove.
4. Leon has a puppy named Mia.
5. I could be better at Fußall than Corny if I applied myself.
6. They get money for returning bottles.
7. Boyhood was a fabulocity movie.
Each photo is a memory from Germany that I want to use to remind me of everything I felt when I was there. My time with Cornelius was time when I didn't have to go to work or school, and I know I'll never be in that position again. So we're gearing up for 5 months apart. I'm scared, but only of how hard it will be to be so distant. Cornelius is really such an incredible man, I can't imagine what I'd do if he went anywhere. I really believe in Us, but it still makes me feel desperately sad when I think of it.
On a further sad note, Grandpa isn't doing well, and we're preparing for the end. It's hard being so far away, but I won't be for long. I want to be with my family during this time, but I also want to be there just because I miss them so much. I have never felt so torn in two directions, and I don't know how to deal with it. Sometimes I feel like there is so much pressure on me that I should just shut down to stop the anxiety. Other times I feel like any outsider would look at my life and label it as 'perfect', and I should stop finding things to be unhappy about. I just worry that my life is taking a turn where I can never be whole because part of me will always be somewhere else.
But enough of the sad stuff! We're in Edinburgh now for Edinburgh Open, and I've already met my goal of making 2 friends. I even made 3. BOOM. Competition starts tomorrow, and Corny going to win it all. Watch the papers, it's coming. On a side note, I am so friggin' cold right now I wanna die.
Dez all I hev now. PEAS.
Going to Berlin marked lots of things, one of which being the return of bubble tea as you know. The second was spending copious amounts of time with Cornelius's parents, who I think like me. At least, his mom does because she told me. Granted, it may be partially because we ganged up on Corny whenever we were together, and that bonded us. It was low, but I regret nothing. Third, I was able to meet several of his friends that he'd known for years, and I was finally able to put a face to the names. Here are a few things I need to remember:
1. Club Mate\Mio Mate is nas-tay.
2. Trams are fun!
3. Berlin bus drivers have sumthin' to prove.
4. Leon has a puppy named Mia.
5. I could be better at Fußall than Corny if I applied myself.
6. They get money for returning bottles.
7. Boyhood was a fabulocity movie.
Each photo is a memory from Germany that I want to use to remind me of everything I felt when I was there. My time with Cornelius was time when I didn't have to go to work or school, and I know I'll never be in that position again. So we're gearing up for 5 months apart. I'm scared, but only of how hard it will be to be so distant. Cornelius is really such an incredible man, I can't imagine what I'd do if he went anywhere. I really believe in Us, but it still makes me feel desperately sad when I think of it.
On a further sad note, Grandpa isn't doing well, and we're preparing for the end. It's hard being so far away, but I won't be for long. I want to be with my family during this time, but I also want to be there just because I miss them so much. I have never felt so torn in two directions, and I don't know how to deal with it. Sometimes I feel like there is so much pressure on me that I should just shut down to stop the anxiety. Other times I feel like any outsider would look at my life and label it as 'perfect', and I should stop finding things to be unhappy about. I just worry that my life is taking a turn where I can never be whole because part of me will always be somewhere else.
But enough of the sad stuff! We're in Edinburgh now for Edinburgh Open, and I've already met my goal of making 2 friends. I even made 3. BOOM. Competition starts tomorrow, and Corny going to win it all. Watch the papers, it's coming. On a side note, I am so friggin' cold right now I wanna die.
Dez all I hev now. PEAS.